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Newspapers are annoying!

The rustle of newspapers never used to be annoying to me even though I could still hear them. ¬†However, I didn’t hear with quite the crispness I now hear as a result of access to the higher frequencies – and now the sound is so annoying! ūüėČ

I remember at some point in school, I would rustle my school papers and not think they were creating an annoying sound.  However, they annoyed people in the classroom, but I always thought that was because some people were more sensitive to sound.

That’s funny to think back to!

Sorry to all those that I annoyed with shaking papers, etc. ¬†I now understand your pain! ūüėČ

Speech understanding improving!

I decided to try out communication with just the implanted ear Рturning off the hearing aid in the other ear Рand compare that to how I did when I first had this device.  My understanding of my mother has definitely improved significantly from the first time I tried this weeks ago!  How exciting!

The other day I was in Starbucks and while awaiting my drink, the barista said something and this was in the waiting area portion of the cafe. ¬†Well, usually I’m not focused on listening in that area while the drinks are being made and certainly it’s difficult to understand. ¬†But I noticed that I understood what he said about ten seconds after he said it. ¬†Before the implant, I wouldn’t have gotten any of the passive chatter. ¬†So that was very nice and encouraging!

Things are Moving Forward!

I continue to work on auditory training and get reprogrammed. ¬†I feel optimistic about the process. ¬†Patience is definitely key for something like this! ¬†It’s interesting how marketing makes something like this seem instantaneous in results. ¬†Well, I was informed from the beginning that there’s a lot of work involved and indeed there is. ¬†But it is well worth the effort!!!

I’m glad I took time off to do this as I keep reading about people who aren’t able to have time off or don’t consider it (or rather can’t consider it) and they struggle with the adaptation. ¬†To me this is completely understandable, because the training involved with this device takes up the entire day! ¬†One needs to rest A LOT during the process and thus there needs to be ample time for rest to occur.

I feel blessed to have time to work with the device and really do all I can to allow it to work for me.

Gratitude

I wish success for everyone and it really makes me happy when people are doing well. It brightens my day! Not every day is easy because we are human beings, so when people are having those great days, it is like sunshine. I’m not trying to sound corny at all. With the experience I’ve been going through, I feel like I appreciate the good days everyone has more than I did before. I didn’t always stop to smell the roses when that is so important to do. Thank you to all of you who continue to inspire, educate, and encourage me! ¬†You fill me with gratitude.

Paralyzed with Hearing Fatigue

Grief filled me up tonight as I felt powerless over the overflow of noise during the last few days.  More specifically, the echoes, crowd noise, and fast pace of poorly insulated rooms Рrestaurants, stores, and other areas where the focus is on visual appeal rather than auditory clarity.

It’s been well established that an overly noisy environment for a hard-of-hearing person, such as myself, makes it harder to understand others. ¬†But besides that, there’s the fatigue that overwhelms the system. ¬†People who have normal hearing levels also have difficulty in noise, but the extreme fatigue doesn’t hit them as it hits someone like me.

I hate lamenting, but now I must. ¬†I cannot both throw the ball and catch it. ¬†I can’t be perfect all the time. ¬†People with hearing loss often strive for perfection and burden themselves completely to compete. ¬†But in reality this doesn’t work out as we seek refuge in our beds before nighttime as we try to keep up.

Indeed, these fatigue attacks can be avoided and I put too much on myself.  But we are all imperfect and thus such a situation cannot be realistically avoided all the time.

Indeed, learning new sounds has made these situations more frequent and as time goes by it’ll all get much better. ¬†But it’s times like these that remind me of how isolating the world can be and how paralyzed I sometimes feel. ¬†This past week, I’ve had a marathon of tough events and thus have succumbed to fatigue and sadness.

But I shall rise again regardless. ¬†In this blog, I must keep track of times I’m both feeling great and feeling otherwise.